Friday, November 16, 2007

Patience

When you have waited for years
What is a day, a week, or even another year to wait;
Decades of absence is nothing
compared to all Eternity

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Words

Silent and Absent But Knowing
Spirit is not of Time and Space

Truth don't Need Testing
But that you may Know Truth

Silence Speaks
Time Tells
Love Hurts
Life's Eternal

Monday, September 04, 2006

Longing, Hoping, Waiting

Longing, Hoping, Waiting

I Dreamt Of Love Last Night

I did not see him but I know he is around
I did not hear him but I hear his voice
The air around is charged and electrifying
And everything is sweet, drenched with honey

I cannot think clearly
My breathing is heavy
My heart is full of excitement
And I do things I never thought of doing

And I know he feels the same way too
And he knows and feels the same of me too
And unseen unheard and uncoordinated we move
To meet at an unknown place at an unknown time

Sunday, September 03, 2006

A Prayer

LORD, affirm and encourage me,
so that I have the strength and courage,
to bear all that you will bring upon me,
which is in accordance with your perfect, wise and good will.
May I hear your voice all the time
and know that you are always with me.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

God's Gentle Touch

The mountains skipped like rams,
the hills like lambs.
[Ps 114:4]
The Spirit of the Lord is sweet.
With a touch he dispels my heaviness and my weariness.
Like the mist disappearing in the brightening early morning
so too my anxieties and my meaninglessness.

And he sweeps clean my soul and fills me with a song;
a song my tongue cannot help but sing spontaneously in true joy.
And though I have not seen the ends of my troubles
I am rested and yet assured again
that the Lord, the living God, is my God.

And now I understand how mountains can skip like lambs
when the joy of the Lord is upon them.

Friday, June 30, 2006

A Prayer from the LORD

The LORD fills my soul
He puts a prayer on my lips

I am a vessel pierced
My life poured out
As Jesus awaits the Father's mercies
hanging accursed on the cross
so do I await the strong arm of the LORD
to rescue me
to restore me
to fulfil my portion in Him.

I bear in me the marks of Christ.

Hallelujah!

Monday, April 10, 2006

Why Are You Crying?

Are you crying?

Why are you crying?

Aren't you happily married, again? You may say its an infatuation later on but thats not really true in my view. Whatever people say after a breakup are really mere excuses for indulgence. For really marriage don't need love, it just need mutual benefits, and also if you do not know love how can you tell what is an infatuation. But I'm digressing here.

So why are you crying?

You felt his pain for him?

But he does not exist for you. How can you feel anything for a thing that don't exist. He is not even a thing. You can have feelings for rocks but for nothing can you feel anything?

Or perhaps you are you crying for yourself? For the lost it meant to you?

But that shouldn't be the case right?

You have no need for him, and whatever need you may have is substitutable and indeed you have found such substitutes, and even better ones. And that was the reason you rejected him in the first place, for you seek a better one and a more perfect one for yourself. So why should you feel any lost at all?

But then why are you crying?

If it is not for him and it is not for you, there is no reason you should feel any pain should you?

Do you want him to continue to love you, but you don't want to oblige yourself to reciprocate? You want to take but do not want to give. And when you don't have it is painful, painful enough to bring tears?

Or maybe you are crying because he reminded you of someone else who or some other things that caused you pain.

But really I do not know and perhaps cannot know.

I do not know what you think and feel. For as long as you turned your back on me and utter not a sound, I am only left with what I see and my imaginations.

And so I only see you cry. And I imagined you felt pain.

What I do not know is what caused this pain and why this thing is so painful.

As I said I can only imagined why you cry.

And I will say again that love is not about need. It is about becoming your true self. You can reject your brother or your father and say you have no need for them, but they for a fact will always be your brother and father. You can run away and they can let you go, but you can't change reality.

It is like your arm. At times you may say you have no need for an arm. And indeed people do live and get along fine in life without arms, legs, eyes and so on. But the arm is yours. Sure you can cut it away. But then the fact is that you are incomplete.

And such incompleteness can be painful, when you become aware of it.